my thoughts as of right now...

Right now... im thinking that life is just a game.
Right now im thinking..... how could just one heartbreak lead to all this pain?
i have so much in my head, so much to say to the people i want to hear.
so much i want to hold on to, year after year.
i mean, im just one girl, barely even able to drive. and still i end up in the worst pain possible, like life wants me to die?
see on some websites.... i couldnt say what i feel, cuse every time i want to express myself,
some person just judges me, making my head reel.
i see red when i cry, cuse i cry with anger,
but when i laugh, its not real... and my smile barely lingers.
this poem isnt the best, just the first of the batch.
trust me, give me time, ill get better and make it last.
well, i have alot, to say to him and her,
but you know, if you dont want me, why bother acting like how we were?
you know, it kinda hurt, when someone plays you like that. but anyway, who cares?
all my words are annoying, like that tiny little nat.
but you know, ill get over it,
i mean really, wont we all?
cuse in the end of all this crap, we still will fall....